As people with free will, we can live with a lot of doubt about whether or not we made a “right” decision. If we’re in a rut, we wonder if God is disappointed in us, we made a wrong turn or delayed His plans. It’s funny how we think we’re big enough to do that, isn’t it?
How fortunate our God has infinite knowledge, resources, and sight. He can work with our wrong turns. As long as we’re still moving toward the destination, He can get us there, even if we’ve chosen the scenic route.

November 14, 2018 5:06 am

Morning, Jesus!

Look at you! I think that was the longest you’ve slept in a while!

I didn’t pick up my phone in the middle of the night!

<beaming>

I can feel you smiling. You’re pretty pleased with Yourself.

I’m pleased with you.

Thanks ... sorry.

That’s okay. You’ll get it.

Jesus?

Yeah?

Do You get mad at me?

I get concerned for you but I’m always hopeful.

It sounds like I disappoint You. I must do that a lot.

I do have to merge My knowledge of who you were created to be and flow with you in your free will. It’s not disappointment but I do want to see you to live your best life. I’m not out here heckling you or expecting you to fail. That’s not what I’m about. If anything, I’m your greatest cheerleader!

I wish You’d tell me what to do.

Beloved, you don’t always ask Me for My advice.

Still, even when I think I’ve heard from You, I can remember distinct times I’ve crashed.

Let me ask you this: When the blessings were coming and the prayers were being answered and it all seemed to be going well ... did you stop asking for My counsel at any point before you “crashed”?

I didn’t say all that to make you feel bad, but success is a two-way street. My advice only helps if you’re asking for it and you’re ready to act on it. Running ahead just leaves Me behind.

But You’re Jesus! Just keep up with me!

I’m going to give you a moment to hear yourself.

I just told the Son of God to let me lead.

Yeah.

And that’s where I get in trouble.

Let’s just say it would help if you would let Me lead. I can see a lot further ahead.

It’s hard to remember to ask for help when things are going well.

That’s why those are the most critical times to stay at My side, maybe even a little behind Me, with the further vision and all. Either way, just hold onto Me.

But if I rely on You so much, doesn’t that mean I’m not growing and learning? Shouldn’t I be more independent than that?

That’s the world talking again. Being with Me, that’s growth.

So, what do I ask You?

Anything you’re unsure about.

Oof. That’s a long list.

Well, I’m not going anywhere, and I have all the time you need. Get it? Because I’m outside of time.

<laughing> Thanks. It just seems like my details would be so boring to You.

You’ve got to stop doing that.

Doing what?

Not realizing love is in the details. What you order on the menu, when you wonder what font to use, or when you’re trying to figure out what to wear for the day ... yes, it all matters to Me because it matters to you! Love. Is in. The details.

You’re awesome.

This is what I’m trying to tell you! <laughing> But seriously, you’re pretty awesome.

I feel far from awesome.

It doesn’t change My mind just because you can’t take a compliment.

I hope one day I can see what You see in me.

I’ll say it for you until you can. Just don’t stop listening.

I’ll try.

I just heard Yoda* in my head.

Same. <laughing> You’re pretty cool, Jesus.

I love you.

Prayer: Father, your gift of free will can be hard to navigate: To be free in our decisions while striving to know every blessing and purpose You have for our lives, Lord, is hard. I’m so easily distracted. It’s easy to let the spirit of resistance keep me from doing the work you’ve given my life and equally hard to slow down long enough to listen for Your prompting. Will I get this right? Is it too late to come back to the path I’ve strayed from? Help me to have the patience to walk with You in my spirit and behind You with my steps. Help me to see where You are leading me so I comprehend every lesson this life has to offer and that I may serve others well.

Lord, I know that in my own strength, I am limited. Help me to rely on You when I long to be so independent but don’t have the vision that You have for my life. Help me to get out of my own way and listen to wisdom that is greater than my experience and help me be wise enough to know that I still have so much to learn.

Thank You for seeing me as Yours, Lord, and worthy of Your love, even when I’m unsure of who I am to You. You are showing me what love can be, even when I feel unlovable. Thank You for loving me even in my doubt. Amen.